My special story on the January Full Moon ....

Tonight is the first full moon for the year, January 2020 as well as an eclipse.. how lucky are we and happy full moon blessings to you all!! Now since this full moon is also about being greatful for our vulnerabilities I wanted to share something  personal with you all and why this January full moon is extra special for me…

Throughout my life I have struggled a lot around “female issues and fertility” with my Uterus in particular…

From early on it started with severe endometriosis causing a lot of pain as well as being told fertility would be an issue later down the track. I have had many surgeries to remove endometriosis as well as reconstruction surgery on my uterus and along with this my husband and I being on a bit of a fertility journey along the way.

To begin with many years ago we were blessed and fortunate to naturally fall pregnant which sadly was short lived and almost cost me my life… this particular pregnancy resulted in being ectopic which was undetected and as a consequence dangerously burst. This event not only saw me being rushed off for emergency surgery and loose a very loved baby but it also resulted in the loss of my left fallopian tube. After this event and taking time to recover we then proceeded with fertility treatments due to everything that has happened and it was advised it would be very unlikely we would ever fall pregnant unassisted  again...

A year went by and through medical help we were blessed to be pregnant again, however with more great sadness this to was short lived and although through fertility treatment it also ended up being another ectopic pregnancy inside my one remaining tube. Since they were able to detect this in time before it burst they tried to save my right fallopian tube however as a result I not only lost another beautiful baby I also had severe damage to that fallopian tube which left it completely blocked, damaged and basically non-functioning…. Our dream of ever having a child naturally went completly out the window with a 0% chance unless it was through IVF.

With this and after time to once again recover I followed and focussed on everything that was said to me from medical professionals, and with the amazing help of IVF 3 years later we welcomed earth side our beautiful little boy Henley. To this day we are beyond blessed and greatful for him and would not have changed a thing, this was all apart of my journey but the magic was still to follow...

You see I am a firm believer that for every illness, disease or pain we have there is a mental or emotional cause behind it all and if you start to work on the root of the cause and dedicate self love the body will start to heal itself. So I started to think why have I focussed on what has been said, putting these limiting beliefs on myself, this is not what I tell others to do so why this time have I done this for myself... Yes physically there are obsticles in the way but if I leave it up to the universe's plan and instead focus on the work I need to do within then however and if we are meant to have another baby it will happen one way or another.

So from there I started to nourish my body, I started listening to it more, everytime I would think about that area of my body I would send love, light and positive thoughts to it, I did alot of self healing through Reiki sending energy to my remaining tube, visualising, releasing, affirmations,working with crystals and having healings from good friends also in the field, I listened to my intuition and started delving into the emotional layers and the areas I had "locked away" so to speak. I would thank the universe for the baby that was on its way and basically made sure all my ducks were in a row, my energy levels were good, I was rested and working with the beautiful manifesting energies of the moon until I felt the time was right... Of course I also knew the beautiful soul that would choose me as their mother would also have a say in the matter on when they decided to join me earth side but this was all towards the greater plan

Fast forward to the January full moon last year I finally felt ready so after connecting with my spiritual team  and recieving guidance that the time was right, I set my intentions for that full moon, made a full moon elixir to drink the next day, surrounding myself with crystals that would aid and as I looked up to the moon I thanked the Universe and my beautiful baby who I welcomed with so much love.

I believe in magic and miracles, I have trust and faith in the universe and am thankful for the lessons along the way, the good and the bad as they all result in my growth and transformation. We all have this healing power within us and within our mind.... Never underestimate the powerful energy that not only you have but also with the moon and universe helping you to release and manifest and then dreams really do come true....

My beautiful daughter Ayda was concieved naturally the night of the January full moon, despite arriving a little early she was due October that year, My two angel babies that I lost were also due on the exact same day as Ayda in October. To this day our specialists still cannot explain how this happened as they have gone through and examined my remaning tube which is still twisted and blocked with nothing flushing through, and when they say to me we just dont know how this could be I just smile at them and say I do ....
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Photo of my beautiful daughter Ayda, Photo credit to the talented photography by Sarah Finlay